Changes

I find it interesting how things change. Friendships are continually changing and shifting. Relationships good or bad effecting more then just those in them. I look at some of the people around me and see that they still have friends that they grew up with. Life long friends... I don't think you know how rare they are. I have no contact with anyone I knew growing up. I have changed they have changed and moved and married and are now having kids and moving on with there lives. Lives that have no room for those friends they once knew.

There is nothing wrong with making new friends, but a part of me wishes I had that rare friend that I could count on no matter what. Not that I don't have good friends, but not ones good enough to choose hanging out with me over that certain someone in their life, and it isn't like I expect them to either. I can't expect them to choose me over that special person in their life. But I guess as their friend I thought there would still be room for me, but there isn't anymore. It is a common trend and a natural one. It isn't unexpected, but it is just a little lonely to watch all your friends find that someone to share their life with for the time being or even for eternity.

I guess what I am getting at is that I want someone in my life to choose me. Not just because of the way I look or anything superficial like that. But because of who I am, because I am fun to be with, interesting enough to have an intellectual conversation with. Because they value my opinions and love to hear stories of my life. Someone that feels comfortable around me and I feel the same around them. We would be able to be completely ourselves, knowing each others strengths and weakness and we can help each other learn and grow. I want someone I can laugh with, and cry with, and be silly and be serious with. I want someone to travel with, to stay at home with. Someone to be busy with or do nothing with. Some one to share my values and morals. Someone to believe in me and give me someone to believe in. I just want that someone.

I know you are out there but I just cant find you. So please come find me. I often grow lonely and long to see your face. I will be everything you need and want and you will be the same for me. Together we WILL live happily ever after, because with you by my side, life will be the fairytale I always dreamed of.

Second Star to the Right!

I want to run a way. I want to fly to Never, Neverland and just be done with dreams that don't come true. In a land of make believe everything is new and exciting. The adventure of life would be just that... an adventure.

Sometimes I have these dreams that are so real. Yet then I wake up and the dream fades as I go about my day. I wish I had a box that I could store all my dreams in. If I needed them I could just pull them out, dust them off and travel to a different time and place.

I want my life to be a movie. For some reason things always work out. I hate the movies that don't end happy. That is the reason I go to movies. If I wanted to be reminded of how much life sucks, I wouldn't read or dream. I would be stuck in this colorless world with no hope for a happily ever after. But that is what movies, books, and dreams are for. To help us see the world differently. To give us hope that we might someday: slay the dragon, find the prince/princess, and live happily ever after.

Lets all fly towards the Second Star to the Right and straight on til morning.