Second Star to the Right!

I want to run a way. I want to fly to Never, Neverland and just be done with dreams that don't come true. In a land of make believe everything is new and exciting. The adventure of life would be just that... an adventure.

Sometimes I have these dreams that are so real. Yet then I wake up and the dream fades as I go about my day. I wish I had a box that I could store all my dreams in. If I needed them I could just pull them out, dust them off and travel to a different time and place.

I want my life to be a movie. For some reason things always work out. I hate the movies that don't end happy. That is the reason I go to movies. If I wanted to be reminded of how much life sucks, I wouldn't read or dream. I would be stuck in this colorless world with no hope for a happily ever after. But that is what movies, books, and dreams are for. To help us see the world differently. To give us hope that we might someday: slay the dragon, find the prince/princess, and live happily ever after.

Lets all fly towards the Second Star to the Right and straight on til morning.

Need You Now

To my White Knight,

            You have yet to come and rescue me (a.k.a. the damsel in distress) from my lonely existence.  I must conclude that since you have yet to show up, you must not be coming. I have to ask myself, where you might be. There are no dragons to slay. Only one task you must complete, scale the wall that protects my heart. It won’t be easy I will give you that. I have built the wall so high and so thick that anyone not up to the challenge will fail.

            And yet, even with my heart so guarded, I find myself vulnerable. For there is one, that has braved the wall and somehow surpassed it with ease.  It built its own way out, and it comes and goes as it pleases. It has a name…Loneliness. It is a dreadful foe that keeps my heart and mind captive. I need you to find me, and soon. I fight off loneliness, but I only the have the strength to do so for certain periods of time. When I am weak  though, I succumb to feeling alone. I cry when I know that no one is looking. I feel depressed, and I find myself realizing that nobody cares.

            Everyone has their own life to worry about. They may ask what is wrong, but I can never bring myself to tell them. Why? I have no one to confide in, no one to truly comfort me, and no one to hold me when I cry. And it is all because you are not here. Sometimes I think I catch a glimpse of you. I think, maybe you have come at last, but then I realized that the person in front of me has their own damsel to save  and my search for you starts all over again.

            Must I resign to playing the silly games that all the other girls play, because if I must you are not worth my time. I hate the games, I always have. You are supposed to fight for me… remember. I have lost my strength for the time being and loneliness has come in your place.

Please save me.

Your Princess

A little Myth

Greek Mythology has always been somewhat fascinating to me. The other day I came across a myth that I had completely forgotten about:
The Myth starts by telling us about the creation of humans. It said that all humans began with four arms, four legs, and two faces. In a day when the humans were meant to fear and worship Zeus and the other Gods, Zeus feared that these being were too powerful. So in order to regain their fear and destroy their power Zeus split them in half. Instead of walking on four legs, the beings now walked upright on two. Split from their other half the being feared the Gods again, but even more then that fear, they felt the need to search for the missing half. Instead of rising up against the Zeus, the being would spend their lives searching for the one that would "complete" them. Thus the idea of soul mates was born.

Now I don't believe in soul mates. I do believe their is someone out there for everyone. I kind of like this myth, even if it is completely untrue. The idea that we know our "other half" is out there, but that we just need to find them is a comforting thought. I find it funny that we say such things like, "You complete me" or "You are my better half". I wonder if when people say such things, they know of this myth.

So, here is my own myth...My other half, hopefully I find you soon.

Headlights

To my Someone...

I passed several cars with headlights out today. Each time I thoughtfully saved the kiss on the ceiling of my small car. I have been saving them for days...weeks...months...years, waiting for you. They collect there, you know? I sometimes contemplate letting that one car go by, not saving that one kiss. Then I think that I might regret it so I quickly snatch it up as the car passes beside me, unaware that I almost didn't take the opportunity it presented me. 

Yet, you still haven't come...

Do you even know that I save them? Do you do the same for me? I long to know you, but time has not been my friend and has not sped up your coming. No, not a friend indeed, instead it extends the minutes, making them hrs. The days become weeks and the months become years, and it seems that the more I wait for you the more I realize how much I miss the person I never knew.

It that possible? No, I don't miss you, because I have never known you. I only have my imaginary you. The one I think of each time I see a car missing a headlight. No name, no face. Yet you exist in my mind.  Please come replace this fictitious person. Make my imaginings real, and my dreams no longer a fantasy. Run to me, it is all I ask.

I lie... I do ask  for one more thing.

Help me to forget the meaning of a missing headlight...